Run away

I wish I could run away
to a place where nobody knows me.
Away from everyone and everything;
and from the ghosts of past!
Away, where I can’t remember things too well;
where memories fade away on my wish.
Away, where I don’t have to protect my foes,
where I don’t have to hurt my friends.
I wish there was such a place on earth.
I wish there was such a point in time.
I wish I could run away there.
I wish I could run away anywhere.

I Hope You Never Cry

 

I hope
that someday,
when I’m done crying,
you get hurt,
you want to cry,
And you cannot cry.

I hope that your soul aches,
and may your heart die.
And above all I hope
that you cannot cry.

May you remember me
when someone hurts you
same way that you hurt me.
And may you believe
that you deserve the pain.
When you drown yourself
In endless grief of guilt,
I hope, oh darling-
no one knows you are there,
And you cannot cry.


A part of me wants this to happen
A part of me cries when I’m writing this
A part isn’t even aware of these feelings
And a part of me has already forgiven everything

 

Does God Care, Ma?

Please don’t cry Ma!
I will kneel,
If that makes you happy.
Pray I will !

Don’t be mad, Ma!
But I want to know,
Does he love you?
Does he ever show?

Does he watch me when Jim beats me at school?
Does he even know where do we live?
Isn’t he the one who took dad?
I miss dad ,Ma!
Can’t he send him back?

Tell me Ma,
Does he cry too,
When you sleep hungry,
As you cry,
When I don’t eat?

I don’t like him,
But I love you.
Will you love me, Ma;
If today I kneel?

Smile on the cracked lips

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          Sour smell of the algae inhabiting the crevices of the wall had replaced the aroma of her lustrous hair which once spread in the air of this house. And replaced were her soft chuckles by the viscid silence which made it almost impossible for him to make a move from his old wooden chair.

          He was old now. He lost count after about seventy. He remembered her teasing him calling him old when he turned sixty. She was about the same age, but a lot younger than him. Her smile used to take a decade off from her face. He used to sit with her on the front porch at night, leaning against the wall, recalling the memories of the old happy times. Gazing at the stars in the sky, they would fall asleep in each other’s arms.

          One cloudy afternoon when they were planting a rose in their garden, she asked him,”If we did have a child, would this life have been any different?”. He laughed at this and replied,”Oh, yes, a lot different. Then I would hate it.”

          He could tell how much did it hurt her by the tone of her voice when she used to cheerily announce that she was fine. Despite the cancer, she never let him feel that she was in pain. But he knew. He wept silently in bed when she was asleep in his arms. He felt so impotent. The only person he cared for through his whole life, she was dying prematurely, and he couldn’t save her.

          Then one morning, it happened. She did not wake up. He was all alone now. He had not been without her since he didn’t remember when. He had spent his entire life protecting her. He had endured all the pain of the world to protect her from a single scratch of destiny. But alas, he could not protect her from death.

          And now, he was waiting for that cruel old enemy to strike back, so that he can submit himself to it, with a smile on his cracked lips.